Monthly Archives: March 2013

Diary: 03/12/2013 Tue.

In the class morning, suddenly I choked on my spit and had a coughing fit a while. It’s not by cold, just what anyone can do sometimes. So I didn’t care itself, but at the same time I remembered one of my favorite songs “ANSWER” by a Japanese pop singer Noriyuki Makihara. The song describes a similar event at a subway station, and the man in the song, following the cough, cannot stop tears rising from his eyes (this time I didn’t cry, by the way).

というわけで槇原敬之の「ANSWER」がふと浮かんだわけなんだけど、好きです、この曲。改札で咳き込む最初のシーンも良いのだけど、最後の”春の強い風も夏の暑さも秋のさみしさも冬の寒さも”ってとこ。シンプルな歌詞なんだけど、メロディーの盛り上がりと相まってじんとくる。そういえば今日は雨も風も強い日だったよ。

Diary: 03/11/2013 Mon.

While walking down to the auditorium for class in the morning, I recognized I was a little down today. I know the reason. It happens often when my emotional valve open after receiving passion of many people. Also, this is just in my regular biorhythm, up and down. Just a ordinary day. I gratitude I live such an ordinary life.

少しぐったり、心揺れ気味。上がった後は落ちるという単純なバイオリズムなので、いつものこと。粛々と生を歩む。

Diary: 03/10/2013 Sun.

Attended the symposium, “The Great East Japan Earthquake: Creative Responses & Social Imagination.” It was wonderful day to know how many people in NY have strong interest and compassion in Tohoku Japan. Various speakers told us their own experience and story. Especially, I was impressed from Jake Price. I could not only listen to his speech but also talk in person at the reception, and dinner after the symposium. Jake told me, in response to my question “how did you balance your professionalism or journalism and your emotional feeling?”, that it was impossible to keep distance as a journalist and he didn’t regard his project in Tohoku as journalism. I saw many photographers who had complexity in taking photos in that area. His honesty made me feel that he is a really respectable person. As a final speaker, I made a speech on my projects in Oshia Peninsula. I told our micro, but specific experience and story with individuals. But, though I spoke as an individual, I felt some expansion of connection and compassion with many more people in Japan and NY.

I really thank organizers CJR members for their great dedication and sophisticated operations. I hope I could play as a speaker because that would be the best thing I can do to express my gratitude to organizers.

シンポジウム”The Great East Japan Earthquake: Creative Responses & Social Imagination.”に参加。あっという間だったけど、本当に良い一日だったな…自分の役目を、果たせたと思う。海を越えて、橋はきっと架かっている。

運営の方々と、残られた一部のスピーカーの方々と大学近くのレストランで食事をして帰った。アパートがある168thの駅に降り立ってちょうど数分後に、日本時間で2:46pmを迎えるタイミングになった(時差は13時間)。家に向かう途中、立ち止まって少しだけ黙祷した。

Diary: 03/01/2013 Friday

It’s almost March. My friends in class and I was surprised to know we’ve finished already 6 weeks of our second semester. This week was a little tough with two papers due on Friday and Saturday, but anyway I’ve done. Now I’m looking forward to scent of spring brought by plum and cherry blossoms (I hear I can meet with them even in NY here).

早くも3月。今週はエッセイとレポートの課題があってなかなか大変だったが、ともあれ提出し終えた。梅と桜が運んでくれる、春の香りが楽しみだ。ここニューヨークでも、梅や桜と出会える場所が、あるらしい。

お墓の中に私はいませんなんて歌がありましたが、死人はおろか、生きてる人間だって、過ぎ去った日々の中になんかいませんから。遠くで今を生きてるヒトたちと、出会ったならばいつでも「はじめまして」と言える、ワタクシ、そういうヒトでありたいです。

とはいえ、積み重なった想い出が、今を刷新し続ける活力だったり、信じ続ける強さをもたらすのでもあって、不思議なもんです。

信じてくれていること、知っているよ、届いているよ、こちらも信じているよと、そういう気持ちが、届けば良いなと思う。切手を貼らない手紙。